Sunday, February 27, 2011


i just wanna make a point. i juz wana let ya'll kno what i do for you guys. i have sacrificedso much juz to make you guys happy. yes i make mistakes but hey im not perfect. its juz too much. i don't have time, the energy to put up wit dis anymore. i am tired. i try so hard, but it seems that everything i do..juz isn't good enough.


i just want them to realize me out. please bring me bak up and make me strong again because right now i am so weak and helpless, i need you. help me to continue what im doing and not get tired of doing whats right, tho there are a million temptations out me.



Saturday, January 8, 2011

"Game Plan?"

over years, ive always tried to take control of my life. ive always tried to layout every single thing and expect it to happen..but slowly i learned that things don't turn out the way we plan it to be..God truly has His ways, His plans..i mean its good to have an outline, but if it's in God's will happen..i guess what im trying to sayy is nothing is permanent. things WILL i guess tha game plan for this new year is to really let go, and let God. lately, im been struggling about what God wants in my life..where does He want me to go, to do..honestly, i feel as if im drifting away from God..and that is the worse thing that anyone can feel. I don't feel as close to Him as i use to=[ maybe my descision to "bak off" and turn down wasn't the right one..maybe these were other opporturnities that God was handing to me..i juz didn't take it..and in result, this feeling, this empty feeling.

**edit: i think i juz needa surrender. re-evalute. restart. redue. and BE better.
note to self: stop "experimenting" you know where ur supposed to be, so do it.

Dear Jesus,

im sorry for slacking..putting you asidee..i am ashamed, guilty. I am soo sorry..please take me backk..give me another chancee..please make me new and back to youu.

in Your name,



Thursday, December 30, 2010


December-January of 2010: My year in Kodaks

2010 is juz about done. it will be gone with the good and the bad. its crazy how alot can happen within a year..but overall, i gotta say that 2010 was swell. Definately a year ill remember:] Deuces 2010, you were good to me so thanks:]

New Years Resolution?

To LOVE as God loves.

Here's to 2011!
make it ballin, cuz only you can make your day go better:]


Wednesday, December 1, 2010


Directions: Write definitions to ALL the words on the list; Write a story using TEN of the words.

Here's the story:
"There once was a couple who had deep adulation for eachother. Just the way they talked to eachother showed how much they cared for eachother. They cleaved to one another, vowing never to leave eachother. It is as if they are coalesce..unbreakable. Though there maybe things that enervate their lives, they manage to be strong, extract all the problems and move on. They are not the generic, the typical everyday couple. They are a very unique and special pair, that only they can understand. They are not spurious but true and geniune to one another. Their love for eachother is precocious and deeper than any movie, book can portray. They are a perfect example for young people, young couples. It ramificates inspiration and perserverance for others to follow. Their life is full of happyness not one bit of arid, only happyness."

i usually write stories about random fun things, like adventures or juz plain fictional fantasy stories..but for this assignment i juz felt like writing about something..something that could relate to ppl..relationships. i guess this is the ideal..impossible to such thing..the ideal relationship..

or is it?

it could happen.
and if it does, don't let go of eachother..but keep going, cuz you both are put together by God for a reason. and tho that reason may be unclear now, trust God that he has a plan..


oh God, help me out.



dot. dot. dot.


Sunday, November 28, 2010


ill be back in 4years.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


"Roses are red, violets are blue it's not the same without you!!" -Krizelle

got over 20 handmade cards from my Sabbath School kids. this whole thing has really opened my eyes. it really made me realized who were really there for me. those who came and visited, called, and texted to check up on me. my life is good. its simple living. i am content, happy. ALL props to God< 3

count your blessings, always.