"bruised."

i just wanna make a point. i juz wana let ya'll kno what i do for you guys. i have sacrificedso much juz to make you guys happy. yes i make mistakes but hey im not perfect. its juz too much. i don't have time, the energy to put up wit dis anymore. i am tired. i try so hard, but it seems that everything i do..juz isn't good enough.

Jesus,

i just want them to realize it..help me out. please bring me bak up and make me strong again because right now i am so weak and helpless, i need you. help me to continue what im doing and not get tired of doing whats right, tho there are a million temptations out there..help me.

yours,

shaneQ

"Game Plan?"

over years, ive always tried to take control of my life. ive always tried to layout every single thing and expect it to happen..but slowly i learned that things don't turn out the way we plan it to be..God truly has His ways, His plans..i mean its good to have an outline, but if it's in God's will..it will happen..i guess what im trying to sayy is nothing is permanent. things WILL change..so i guess tha game plan for this new year is to really let go, and let God. lately, im been struggling about what God wants in my life..where does He want me to go, to do..honestly, i feel as if im drifting away from God..and that is the worse thing that anyone can feel. I don't feel as close to Him as i use to=[ maybe my descision to "bak off" and turn down wasn't the right one..maybe these were other opporturnities that God was handing to me..i juz didn't take it..and in result, this feeling, this empty feeling.

**edit: i think i juz needa surrender. re-evalute. restart. redue. and BE better.

note to self: stop "experimenting" you know where ur supposed to be, so do it.

Dear Jesus,

im sorry..im sorry for slacking..putting you asidee..i am ashamed, guilty. I am soo sorry..please take me backk..give me another chancee..please make me new and back to youu.

in Your name,

Amen.

-shane

"Deuces."

December-January of 2010: My year in Kodaks

2010 is juz about done. it will be gone with the good and the bad. its crazy how alot can happen within a year..but overall, i gotta say that 2010 was swell. Definately a year ill remember:] Deuces 2010, you were good to me so thanks:]

New Years Resolution?

To LOVE as God loves.

Here's to 2011!

make it ballin, cuz only you can make your day go better:]

-ShaneQ

"Assignment"

Directions: Write definitions to ALL the words on the list; Write a story using TEN of the words.

Here's the story:

"There once was a couple who had deep adulation for eachother. Just the way they talked to eachother showed how much they cared for eachother. They cleaved to one another, vowing never to leave eachother. It is as if they are coalesce..unbreakable. Though there maybe things that enervate their lives, they manage to be strong, extract all the problems and move on. They are not the generic, the typical everyday couple. They are a very unique and special pair, that only they can understand. They are not spurious but true and geniune to one another. Their love for eachother is precocious and deeper than any movie, book can portray. They are a perfect example for young people, young couples. It ramificates inspiration and perserverance for others to follow. Their life is full of happyness not one bit of arid, only happyness."

i usually write stories about random fun things, like adventures or juz plain fictional fantasy stories..but for this assignment i juz felt like writing about something..something that could relate to ppl..relationships. i guess this is the ideal..impossible to obtain..no such thing..the ideal relationship..

or is it?

it could happen.

and if it does, don't let go of eachother..but keep going, cuz you both are put together by God for a reason. and tho that reason may be unclear now, trust God that he has a plan..

???

oh God, help me out.

-shaneQ.

"..."

dot. dot. dot.

patience.

"Mahalo"

ill be back in 4years.

"Content"

"Roses are red, violets are blue it's not the same without you!!" -Krizelle

got over 20 handmade cards from my Sabbath School kids. this whole thing has really opened my eyes. it really made me realized who were really there for me. those who came and visited, called, and texted to check up on me. my life is good. its simple living. i am content, happy. ALL props to God< 3

count your blessings, always.

-shaneQ

"Highlights"

-things are finally getting back to normal
-almost all caught up with school
-saw mr. Laing after 2 years! "oh looks, its tha BUHs!!"

-drove for the first time since the 31st

-saw mah boyy< 3

Jesus, Thank You.

Proverbs 3: 5,6 always.

< 3 shane

"Aleve"

much better than Vatican and Motrin.

"ehh"

im tired of this.

i juz want a break.
i juz want things to be bak to tha norm.

yesterday was juz hard..painful. seeing you outside the window..being juz a wall away..it was hard, tho i didn't really show it.

still, explaining what happened over and over, pictures being reshown, questions being asked and answered, false accusations.
i kno i should be thankful, and i very much am. "it's a miracle that you guys are okay" i believe it 100%. however now im bak to reality, walking and bak in school. its not fun being absent in college. 1st day of work drained me out..ehh maybe i should'nt have went bak todayy cuz im dead tiredd. felt like collapsing..ehh i gotta suck it up. for school, family..myself. blehh. can it juz be vacay already??

breathe. sleep. rest. chill. vacation, please. im in suchh a 'blehh' mood..maybe i juz need sleep..rest..juz relax..

Dear Jesus,

help me to juz chill. let go, and give it to youu

Amen

-shane

"StreetFighters"

we keep walking.

moving on.

only making us, stronger.

God is Good.

thanks for all the prayers< 3

"weekSTART"

yeeeup, its the weekSTART:D not the weekEND lol i feel oh so much better besides tha fact that im crampin up its all good! im not siick anymoree yayyy!** thanks bee for taking care of mee, you helped sooo much you have no idea, so thank you. be safe and have fun up in the woods:] so im pretty set for this weekSTART:D i really don't care what i do juz as long as it doesn't involve school then its all good:] so happy weekSTART to you all and get rested! oh and of course HAPPY almost SABBATH!

"1028.10"

you always catch me off guard.
thank you again bee<3
happy 2^____^

"Bed Season"

its that time of year when you're: BED RIDDEN.

-stuffed nose

-soar throat

-weakened body

-dubbed ears

-low voice

etc.

time to stock up on:

-orange juice

-pitopito

-water

-tissue

-meds

can't wait to make noise in the classroom by blowing my nose x29803 times -_____-

**keep rested and cool, thas my problem.

-shane

"Have you Ever..."

reached the point where if you just say ONE MORE WORD you'll blow up and everything will juz roll????

but then you kno if you let it slipp, you'll be saying things that will be SOO hurtful that maybe later on u wish didn't sayyy??

so to answer bak you juz take a deep breath, don't say anything, juz turn around and walk away.

"let go and let God."

fosho.

"What i like about blogspot is..."

that NO ONE uses it anymore!!

so i can throw down anything i want on heree:]


verry niice.

"Hunt"

ima on a job hunt!!!

please hire mee!! the holidays are coming up real sooon and im broke!!! O.O

"I could feel tha spike..."

Ouch.


repeat.

how IRONIC..waht a c o i n c i d e n c e.


it happens.

"EXHAUST"

ed.


t h a n k God its almost tha weekend.


ps: i still needa get use to not seeing you daily=\





O.Oshane

"You're Lucky"

seriously. :]



928.10

<3shaner